Heartbreak

I am in a strange crossroads of my life. Everything I want to move forward seems to be stuck in some Groundhogs days repeat cycle. I have lived in New York for the past 4 years. I have been stuck in a dead end job for two years. I have been on facebook for only a couple of months but the people of my past all seem to have moved on with there lives and I am going no where fast. Every engagement I hear about rips through my heart. Rob was having a conversation with our friend Jackie the other night about marriage and he told her with him ordering his 2010 RS/SS Camaro that he couldn't afford to buy me a ring and I can't remember the rest verbatum but it immediately went into my head that he has his priorities. Am I making things to easy for him that he doesn't think he will loose me so he can keep putting me off? I love him and I hate the idea of us not being together but I feel less than special lately. I was so upset the night I started Jenny Craig for the second time in two years. I thought to myself that it didn't make him like me anymore the last time so why torture myself. I confronted him on it and he said I was being stupid but he left it at that. I feel so much better. He sounds like a piece of shit doesn't he. I agree but I really love him still so I dont know what to do. How long is too long to wait? I can't answer that question yet but I figure one day I will snap and just leave. I pray to God that day never comes, it breaks my heart just thinking about it. So as you can see I am a tormented soul lately.