Uneventful August

I completed my first week on Jenny Craig and I am feeling good. I lost 2.6 lbs this week even after having 3 cheating days, so that was really good. Last night I met with Natalie for some running at the local high school. So far I can't run very far but I am hoping to build it up in case I get a call from any of the local police departments. I took the Westchester county police exam this past year and scored an 85%. It is a good score but I am 1300 something on the list for highering. I really need the time though to get in good physical shape. Being female I worry that I will be at a huge disadvantage unless I am in good physical shape. I am feeling kind of bummed today. I need something exciting to happen, I am feeling life is very mundane. There are fun things coming up but I want to do something fun right now. This month Jamie is having her 21st birthday party so I am sure it will be a blast! Next month my dad is coming out to visit, we are going to Delaware for the weekend for the Dover Nascar race and October we are going to the Florida keys.

Heartbreak

I am in a strange crossroads of my life. Everything I want to move forward seems to be stuck in some Groundhogs days repeat cycle. I have lived in New York for the past 4 years. I have been stuck in a dead end job for two years. I have been on facebook for only a couple of months but the people of my past all seem to have moved on with there lives and I am going no where fast. Every engagement I hear about rips through my heart. Rob was having a conversation with our friend Jackie the other night about marriage and he told her with him ordering his 2010 RS/SS Camaro that he couldn't afford to buy me a ring and I can't remember the rest verbatum but it immediately went into my head that he has his priorities. Am I making things to easy for him that he doesn't think he will loose me so he can keep putting me off? I love him and I hate the idea of us not being together but I feel less than special lately. I was so upset the night I started Jenny Craig for the second time in two years. I thought to myself that it didn't make him like me anymore the last time so why torture myself. I confronted him on it and he said I was being stupid but he left it at that. I feel so much better. He sounds like a piece of shit doesn't he. I agree but I really love him still so I dont know what to do. How long is too long to wait? I can't answer that question yet but I figure one day I will snap and just leave. I pray to God that day never comes, it breaks my heart just thinking about it. So as you can see I am a tormented soul lately.

Stuart Cove and Sea Dwellers

I haven't been on in a while. The Bahamas was such an amasing trip. You will never appreciate the beauty of a shark until you get to see one in its natural enviroment. Anyone looking into Stuart Cove, I would highly recommend them, it is the trip of a lifetime! Another thing worth trying in the Bahamas is the fish fry, I had fried conch and shrimp. Really good!!! I am so excited about our next upcoming trip. For Rob's birthday I booked a trip to the Florida Keys. We are going to be diving with Sea Dwellers out of Key Largo. They were out first dive after we got cerified and one of the nicest groups of people I have ever met. I am also looking forward to Snook's Bayside too. It is an excellent little restaurant on the Gulf side with a great view and delicious food. I love being with Rob so I know we are going to have fun.